A MagiQal Life

A Tomorrow for us
Yesterday it was a chore
I tickled Lakota down on the floor
The day before it was a bother
I had her and her brother
The day before that had some stress
I had three kids put me to the test
Today it will be just the same
But only one child to play the game
Tomorrow will be another story
Because it will be just you and me

For the last several days, as well as a day last week I have been watching grandkids, and while watching Perrin several days a week is the norm for me (and therefore completely normal and sane) I have had the joys and horrors of watching Lakota and Devin. For the better part I have thoroughly enjoyed it. I love each child in different ways and in their own ways they bring me a certain contentment that I never knew existed. They also each have a special way of simply getting on my nerves; though that is something I can deal with in short bursts so generally goes unnoticed. Yesterday Lakota had to go back home, which I think was a good thing… While I will miss her till her next visit, I was also running out of patience. I think even she noticed it by the end of the day. I do not think it helped that I had a headache, and then it was topped off that I tried doing a few things online which should have taken only a few moments that ended up taking hours. I was a bit stressed to say the least.

Give me half a moment
Thirty seconds of silence
Is it too much to ask?
In Thirty seconds of silence
I just want to bask

I ended up going outside for several short bursts so I could just get a little peace of mind, which of course did not work as well as I hoped. Cletus and Usdi were underfoot and I worried about Lakota and Perrin inside. Though, I did get a short moment of Zen as I sat on the steps of the Patio with Squirrel (my gray cat) on my lap, Cletus at my feet, and Usdi sitting on the step next to me. I rubbed squirrel behind the ears with one hand, and my other one took turns scratching the chins of the dogs. That brief moment made me happy to be alive, as I got my thirty seconds of silence. When I went back in I had the vigor to grab Lakota, toss her on the couch. I then snatched Perrin and tossed him up on his cousin, then proceeded to give double SQUISHES and we all laughed and played till Cyndi and Amanda got back. It was then, I got another moment of Zen as I got to hug the woman I love…

A Garden of Emotion
I have a little basket where I keep all my thoughts
I pluck them one by one like tomatoes from the garden
Then gently place them in this basket hanging from my arm
They are put there side by side to protect them from harm
There are many different kinds like memories and emotion
I do my best to keep them all separated so they will not mix
But as I walk row by row sometimes my basket wobbles
And when this wicker box is full sometimes some will topple
Then tumble down to my feet, most are still OK
Though other times they may burst right open
So if I step in haste within such tomato paste
I too will fall

Cyndi has been overly stressed as of late and I am not 100% sure just how to help her, though I do my best to be there for her. I will not go into all the details of her stress, as that is not my place, but I do look forward to her life slowing down a bit so that we can find not just thirty seconds of silence together, but 30 minutes…no, not 30 minutes, longer, much longer. I love her dearly and waking up in her arms this morning was cause for me to wake up all wide eyed and chipper. I will do my best to give her the support she needs, as she is my support. I will do my best to love her with my all, because she loves me even more, and I will do all that I can to make sure that she is happy, because when I am with her, I am the happiest person alive.

Cyndi, I love you! I am here for you and I’ll help carry your basket…

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Next to me
I awoke last night in a bit of fright
A nightmare got the best of me
Glimpses of that dream still in sight
Thank the gods you’re next to me
I laid there in sweat and silence
Shivering as the fan dried away the fear
Shivering as the thoughts sunk in
Thank the gods that you are near
Moments passed more like hours
As the horrors replayed in my mind
And that now the time is ours
I thank the gods you are mine

 They tell me that dreams are prophetic, and sometimes I’m willing to agree. Other times I think that dreams are little more then dreams, and in some cases, little more then nightmares. I’m pretty sure that I’ll not be eaten by bears anytime soon as the dream I had last night indicated; especially not alien sasquatch bears…though I guess the symbology of the dream could hold some semblance of truth to it.

 Generally speaking I do not put a lot of stock into the average dream, unless it seemed significant upon waking or is a reoccurring dream (or theme). Last night was nothing out of the ordinary (well, other then the alien bears mawling me) so I didn’t bother looking up any meanings…besides, that’s about the only think I can recall from the dream.

 What I did get from the dream though came after I woke up, and that was looking over to the woman I love and seeing her sleeping soundly. It’s a truly peaceful sight, and as I laid there watching her she rolled over slightly, enough to swing her hand up and over. It landed just beside me, close enough for her finger to touch my flesh.

 I didn’t move, other then to smile, and as she settled again her finger twitched, and a smile crossed her face.

 I fell back to sleep without a care for Martian Sasquatch, and I slept with a smile.

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01001001 00100111 Drunken bunnies never bounce
01110110 01100101 Lay on the ground
- - - - - - - - - maybe flounce
00100000 01100110 What will happen
- - - - - - - - - I dunno

01100001 01101100 But I can hear them
- - - - - - - - - Inahole

01101100 01100101 I have a trap that I will set
01101110 00100000 Carrots and beer and
- - - - - - - - - bunny net

01100001 01101110 I must stop the hare from haze
01100100 00100000 To catch and sober
- - - - - - - - - Outta daze

01100011 01100001 Can not rest till job is done
01101110 00100111 I must end sin-thetic fun
01110100 00100000 So I will stop circumstance
01100111 01100101 And pomp
01110100 00100000 Then I’ll stomp this
01110101 01110000 Bunny romp

壊れたびんで踊ってもいいか。

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Some days are naturally better then others, today is one of those days. Sometimes it can be better because of what happened on that day, other times it can be all the things that led up to the day. Today is a little of both.

You see yesterday I worked my tail off (see my Rainy Weekends) and when I it was time for bed I was most certainly ready. Once under the covers Cyndi and I held each other and talked for a while about nothing extra significant. Eventually we both fell asleep (still holding each other) and after several hours of sleep we were awoken by the alarm, still holding each other!

Words can not really explain how wonderful of a feeling that is, but putting words together in the form of a poem is a good start:

 A hug last night
Arms entwined as we unwind
While wrapped in warmth and comfort
Pay attention every touch
We massage away the hurt

Wile away the while
Saying how our day was nice
We nestle in a love embrace
Then we slumber, paradise

The time ticks by, as we sleep
My dreams are of only you
As you hold me through the night
You are dreaming of me too

The morning sun, the cock it crows
The bell rings the snooze is pressed
Waking in each others arms
Then soon we must both be dressed

Another day has begun
The cycle, it starts anew
I know this day will be grand
For I started it with you

When things just fall into place, there is very little that can detract from the grandness of life. I’m happy to be alive, and more importantly, I’m happy to be in love!

Cynthia, I love you!

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