A MagiQal Life

A Tomorrow for us
Yesterday it was a chore
I tickled Lakota down on the floor
The day before it was a bother
I had her and her brother
The day before that had some stress
I had three kids put me to the test
Today it will be just the same
But only one child to play the game
Tomorrow will be another story
Because it will be just you and me

For the last several days, as well as a day last week I have been watching grandkids, and while watching Perrin several days a week is the norm for me (and therefore completely normal and sane) I have had the joys and horrors of watching Lakota and Devin. For the better part I have thoroughly enjoyed it. I love each child in different ways and in their own ways they bring me a certain contentment that I never knew existed. They also each have a special way of simply getting on my nerves; though that is something I can deal with in short bursts so generally goes unnoticed. Yesterday Lakota had to go back home, which I think was a good thing… While I will miss her till her next visit, I was also running out of patience. I think even she noticed it by the end of the day. I do not think it helped that I had a headache, and then it was topped off that I tried doing a few things online which should have taken only a few moments that ended up taking hours. I was a bit stressed to say the least.

Give me half a moment
Thirty seconds of silence
Is it too much to ask?
In Thirty seconds of silence
I just want to bask

I ended up going outside for several short bursts so I could just get a little peace of mind, which of course did not work as well as I hoped. Cletus and Usdi were underfoot and I worried about Lakota and Perrin inside. Though, I did get a short moment of Zen as I sat on the steps of the Patio with Squirrel (my gray cat) on my lap, Cletus at my feet, and Usdi sitting on the step next to me. I rubbed squirrel behind the ears with one hand, and my other one took turns scratching the chins of the dogs. That brief moment made me happy to be alive, as I got my thirty seconds of silence. When I went back in I had the vigor to grab Lakota, toss her on the couch. I then snatched Perrin and tossed him up on his cousin, then proceeded to give double SQUISHES and we all laughed and played till Cyndi and Amanda got back. It was then, I got another moment of Zen as I got to hug the woman I love…

A Garden of Emotion
I have a little basket where I keep all my thoughts
I pluck them one by one like tomatoes from the garden
Then gently place them in this basket hanging from my arm
They are put there side by side to protect them from harm
There are many different kinds like memories and emotion
I do my best to keep them all separated so they will not mix
But as I walk row by row sometimes my basket wobbles
And when this wicker box is full sometimes some will topple
Then tumble down to my feet, most are still OK
Though other times they may burst right open
So if I step in haste within such tomato paste
I too will fall

Cyndi has been overly stressed as of late and I am not 100% sure just how to help her, though I do my best to be there for her. I will not go into all the details of her stress, as that is not my place, but I do look forward to her life slowing down a bit so that we can find not just thirty seconds of silence together, but 30 minutes…no, not 30 minutes, longer, much longer. I love her dearly and waking up in her arms this morning was cause for me to wake up all wide eyed and chipper. I will do my best to give her the support she needs, as she is my support. I will do my best to love her with my all, because she loves me even more, and I will do all that I can to make sure that she is happy, because when I am with her, I am the happiest person alive.

Cyndi, I love you! I am here for you and I’ll help carry your basket…

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